Now I understand..

Growing up and still to this day, my sisters and I have always given my mom a hard time when she would get emotional at something simple.. And by hard time, it's in the loving way. 

 It no surprise though that when I see my mother cry, or become some what emotional I could easily do it too. 

I never understood fully why it was that she or really any mother would get emotional at the small things we did as kids, or even as adults. 

Now, I understand. 

I have been wanting to write about this for some time now. Ever since the birth of Joseph, I have been an emotional mess. Whether it be with my battle of PPD, Anxiety or just plain holding back tears.. I've been a mess. 

There have been times that I would think that I would have cried like a baby. You know, the first Laugh (ok, I cried a bit) the first roll, the first crawl, the first words and of course walking.. It was more excitement for me, except the time Joseph said a full "Daddy" it melted my heart, and I choked back tears. 

I'm not saying I am weak, or over sensitive. It's simply a act from pride and love. As woman, our bodies go through a lot and it's very normal for us to be extra emotional after carrying a child for 9 months, even during and after the recovery. It's ok to cry in the car with your screaming toddler after rushing out of the store with embarrassment. 

Let it out. 

I'm sure many of you have seen the Cheerios commercials. I'm going to just give a big shout out to them for all of the tears they have made me shed, recently. 

Seriously. Cheerios gets me every. Single. Time. I think it's a little more because of the fact that I'm so far away from my family. 

So what else can trigger a big blubbering emotional mess.. 

Thinking about Joseph growing up in our new house, celebrating his first birthday at the end of this month and simply just thinking about his future.. I don't go into a full cry, but I choke back some tears.  

I was checking out Pinterest the other night, and I saw a pin my oldest sister had pinned. She didn't re pin it from me.. But it was the same one I had found as well. What got me even more was what she wrote with it...

My Pin-

( screen shot from Pinterest mobile) 

Her Pin-

(Screen shot from Pinterest mobile ) 

It's so wonderful to know my child has some pretty great people in his life that love him. I love letting him FaceTime with them. What a beautiful this that is! I hope he always knows that he is so loved by so many people. 

So it hit me the other night, as a mother.. I'm going to be emotional and it's ok. Whether it be as a mother bear protecting my children or just sobbing quietly watching them amaze me everyday.. I'm ok with it. 

I will still give my mother a hard time, but I now know first hand the reasons why she may cry.. And I'll cry right along side with her. 

-Nicole